I wanted to briefly touch on this by sharing a personal experience of mine from just two days ago. For those of you that know me, well you know that I love and crave the outdoors as often as my health will allow it. I decided on a favorite spot of mine to hike; I made it to the picturesque view that I was longing to soak in fine, it was the getting back up to the car that became the intense struggle.
Every single step I began to take was a challenge more than usual. My feet felt like total fire from the pounding neuropathy that was hitting, shin splints, spinal nerve pain that had been tolerable was full force, dizziness, then the lungs started feeling the fullness/inflammation, it became hard to even take in a shallow breath at this point. (the list of symptoms could go on and on, but I will spare you from that part ha!) I am not panicking because the last three years I KNOW what pushing through, staying active and fighting this disease in details.
As I am in my struggle an older couple breezed right by me, a young man jogged passed me twice on this adventure, other people going about their day and here I was struggling with every ounce of my being at snail pace at this point. Here the thoughts start . . . (A little something like this) “this stinks so bad”, “why do I have to deal with this every single day of my life”, “I remember when I would jog around like that with no problem”, “look at that couple they have 20+ years on me, and they are making this climb with no issues”.
You get the picture the list could go on and on with the negative thoughts that I began thinking. All of the sudden I realized that I was more focused on what everyone else was doing around me than myself. I decided to zone out the people passing me and start focusing on my breathing and prayed to God to help give me the strength once again. I think we all can lose that perspective in life when we start focusing on others strengths and comparing them to our weaknesses. Big mistake in my opinion!
There will always be someone faster, stronger, healthier, younger, blah blah blah, so why compare yourself. Set your pace and take your steps even if they are five steps to someone else's fifty. I encourage everyone to try not to lose focus on your journey, your path. Embrace you and your current situation whatever glorious mess that might be.
God bless you all and thank you as always for taking the time to read some of my most intimate thoughts.